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Thursday, December 29, 2011

For My 11 Year Old

Eleven years ago today, after two miscarriages, one ectopic pregnancy, many rounds of Clomid, four years of "trying", nine months of puking and unbelievable weight gain, four days of induced labor, and one C-section, Girl 1 finally "decided" (after much cajoling) to be born.

And that's sort of how things have been since Day One. Or even pre-Day One. She sorta does things on her own time and in her own way. But I'm always trying to get her to do stuff on my time frame and in my way. No doubt she was sent her to teach me how to be patient and to let go of control.

You'd think I would have learned it be now. But nope. After eleven years (fifteen if you count all the pre-birth stuff) I'm still ramming my head up against a wall, trying to get through, instead of just looking for the door in.

And maybe it's because I have so much to learn from her that my love for her is so deep, but sometimes so hard to show.

So today, this blog is for my eldest. so everyone will know just how much I love her. And because she is 11, easily embarrassed, and a follower of this blog, I will only post one picture of her doing the thing she loves very best:

Happy Birthday Emma C.!


Tia Bach said...

What a sweet post. I have three daughters, so I especially apprecaite the humor. It's amazing how much these beings mean to us, especially when you pray and pray (and struggle) for them.

Thanks for sharing!

S.P. Bowers said...

I have a 20 month old daughter just like that. I'm glad to see that we may both live that long. :) It took us 13 years to get her though.

Happy Birthday Emma!

Larsens said...

I love your insight on her and how you know what to do, but still struggle to do it. This reflection is very easy for me to relate to with my own girl that I need to just look for the door in(:
Happy Birthday Emma!

Jill Campbell said...

There's nothing like a daughter to teach you patience. There's nothing like daughters to bring you joy.

Great post.

Melanie Jacobson said...

I'm just getting to know your cool Emma, but this is exactly the kind of picture I'd imagine of her. She reminds me so much of myself.

Angela Cothran said...

I've heard the way a pregnancy goes will indicate the personality of your kido...Hmmm...

Liz said...

Aw, I love that picture! I wish I had a tree like that to read in when I was 11.

Jennifer Shorr said...

Awe, so sweet. We love Emma too and are so glad she made it here just in time to be best buds with our sweet daughter! :)